S02/E13: Internal Considering - What About Me?
Full Episode Summary
Internal considering is the automatic background operation that scans every social encounter for approval and disapproval signals, adjusting the inner state accordingly before any deliberate thought enters. The Fourth Way tradition identifies it as one of the primary forces consuming available force in ordinary life, and its antidote was placed where students would pass it daily: “The chief means of happiness in this life is the ability to consider externally always, internally never.” This episode traces the operation and gives three practices for its interruption.
The distinction between internal and external considering is established first. Both involve other people; neither is the same operation. External considering attends to the other person’s actual situation. Internal considering attends to one’s own image in the other person’s mind. The surface behaviour can be identical while the direction of attention is opposite. Internal considering means identification; external considering is, in that same moment, a degree of freedom from it.
The puppet mechanism is traced: the rise that arrives with a compliment, the drop that follows a flat reply, both automatic outputs of a process in which others turn the dial. The requirements that drive the mechanism are defined as demands that no amount of acknowledgement can settle, because the function assessing whether the requirement is met is the same function that generates it. The reverse form, retrospective anxiety about possible offence caused, is identified as the same operation facing the opposite direction.
Internal considering extends beyond active social contact into the silences between contacts. The review of how an encounter went, the anticipation of how the next will go, the maintenance of inner accounts against people who have failed to provide adequate recognition. The account is maintained and renewed automatically until the original event has long been eclipsed by the account-keeping itself. The colonisation of impersonal conditions, the sense of injustice regarding circumstances, is identified as internal considering converting external difficulty into personal affront.
The inversion at the heart of the mechanism is developed: the inner life, which should be stable, is the most reactive element; outer conduct, which should be genuinely responsive, is the mechanical output of whatever reactive inner state the latest social reading has produced. The corrected position is outlined. Vanity is established as the constitutional driver of internal considering, not a personal failing but a property of the machine as it currently exists.
The specific working tool is given: “They don’t know what they are doing.” The distinction between tolerance and genuine recognition is stated. When the formula is genuinely applied, no new entry goes into the inner account, and the attention freed from monitoring becomes available for actual external considering. Three practices are given: real-time observation carrying one question into every social encounter for one week; retrospective active reasoning applied to one specific instance; and the cancellation of inner accounts held against specific others, understood as an energetic act releasing force that account-keeping has consumed.
In this episode, you will hear:
- The distinction between internal and external considering – two operations that appear similar on the surface but pull in opposite directions
- The puppet mechanism: how approval and disapproval signals govern the inner state automatically, and the requirements that generate their own sense of insufficiency
- The reverse form of internal considering: retrospective anxiety about possible offence caused, traced as the same operation facing the opposite direction
- The accounting machine: how inner accounts against others are built and renewed in the silences between social contacts, until the account eclipses the original event
- Gurdjieff’s inversion diagnosis: the inner life that should be stable is reactive; outer conduct that should be responsive is mechanical
- The working formula “They don’t know what they are doing” and its specific effect on the inner accounting process
- Three-component practice: real-time observation, retrospective active reasoning on a specific instance, and cancellation of accumulated accounts
Who this episode is for
Anyone who has noticed the inner state rising and falling in response to signals that are barely there, a tone, a pause, a glance, and recognised the disproportionate weight these carry relative to anything actually said.
Anyone who has found themselves reviewing a social encounter hours later, looking for evidence of how they were received, trying to determine whether something landed badly.
Anyone who carries a background sense of grievance against specific people, the awareness that something is owed and has not been delivered, and has recognised that the grievance is maintained by something other than the original event.
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