S01E22: “I Am Martfotai” – The Person of Light

Introduction

Welcome back to Martfotai, a direct path to wholeness, inner freedom, and becoming.

In our last episode, we explored impartiality as the foundation of clear seeing. We discovered how partiality lives in the body before it reaches thought, how the machinery of taking sides exhausts consciousness, and why genuine development cannot occur whilst still caught in fundamental bias.

Impartiality clears perception. It dissolves the distorting lens of preference. It removes the interference of opinion from action.

Today we arrive at what impartiality prepares: Martfotai consciousness itself.

What you already are when all fragments unify.

The word Martfotai comes from Armenian roots. Marta, meaning man, in general, person. Photon, meaning light. Person of Light.

This is not “enlightenment” in the sense of sudden cosmic revelation. It’s the completion of the Five Obligolnian Strivings embodied. It’s what Gurdjieff called “self-individuality”, the establishment of a permanent “I” rather than the parade of shifting “I”s that ordinarily rule life.

Martfotai is transparency. Consciousness expressing without personal distortion. A clear vehicle through which higher intelligence moves.

Check something now. What contracts in you when hearing “person of light”?

Notice any resistance to claiming wholeness. That resistance is just another fragment defending its territory. It need not be believed.

This is I Am Martfotai.

Section 1: What Martfotai Is (And isn’t)

Martfotai is the stabilised expression of unified consciousness. It is the presence that remains when attention becomes whole. A return to the awareness that has always stood beneath experience, unchanged and attentive.

This awareness is not passive. It sees through illusion. It responds without identification. It recognises all that arises without collapse into it. It is continuous, unwavering, unpossessed by any single thought, role, or feeling.

Martfotai expresses through stillness, but it is not stillness alone. It speaks when needed. It acts when required. It withdraws when silence serves. Whatever appears, it remains clear. It does not vanish when intensity rises. It stays present through difficulty, still anchored in the real.

This clarity emerges through integration. When all parts of the self are seen, without rejection or attachment, the system becomes quiet. No centre fights another. No inner part tries to dominate or hide. In this harmony, something deeper begins to move. That movement is Martfotai.

You do not build this. You recognise it. You do not perform this. You uncover it. It becomes evident when attention stops reaching and begins to rest. When the centres align, and the noise settles, the permanent awareness is no longer hidden. It simply shines.

Martfotai meets life as it is. In conversation, it listens with full attention. In conflict, it stands with clarity and strength. In solitude, it remains aware. In connection, it stays present and whole.

This is a condition of being. It expresses itself without display. Words emerge when they bring clarity. Stillness enters when it deepens the field. Presence communicates directly, beyond persuasion.

Those who walk in Martfotai become quiet in the best sense. They no longer seek attention, validation, or position. They move through the world with a clarity that softens distortion. Their actions align. Their gaze holds. Their listening deepens.

Martfotai is what remains when all other identities are set down. It is the original ground from which all clear actions arise.

Section 2: The Three-Fold Presence

The Person of Light expresses through three distinct but inseparable qualities: wholeness, neutrality, and presence. These qualities emerge as the inner system finds coherence, and attention stabilises.

When identity fragments no longer dominate, something simple and steady begins to shine through. These qualities are the shape that light takes when it moves through a unified life.

Wholeness includes all that arises. Every part, whether calm or unsettled, loving or resistant, is recognised as part of the inner terrain. Nothing is excluded or corrected. Everything is welcomed.

When wholeness is lived, even the sharp edges are allowed their place. A wave of anger arrives. It is sensed, acknowledged, and held. It no longer seizes the mind or drives the tongue. The same with fear, or comparison, or pride. Each is seen, and seeing changes the chemistry. Reaction softens. The system finds balance.

This clarity spreads outward. You enter a difficult conversation. A defensive pattern stirs. You feel it in the chest. Instead of tightening around it, you give it space. Awareness expands. A different quality of attention enters the room. Wholeness becomes embodied in the way you speak, listen, and stay.

Neutrality supports embodiment through balance and inclusion. It stands at the centre of movement, watching with even attention. It engages both sides fully and keeps the field open. It is the still axis that allows every swing to complete its motion.

In neutrality, awareness stays wide and responsive. A disagreement unfolds. You remain present. Instinct moves, yet the centre remains steady. Listening becomes precise. Words find their right measure. The space around the exchange grows clear.

Neutrality joins participation with equanimity. It holds both forces within one awareness. This steadiness invites recognition in others. The field between becomes open and transparent. Communication flows without distortion.

Presence makes both wholeness and neutrality possible. It remains available in sound and silence, movement and stillness. It does not require retreat. It remains available in the middle of life.

As presence strengthens, the three centres align. The body grounds. The heart listens. The mind slows and becomes useful. A unified rhythm begins to guide expression. What you do, what you feel, and what you think begin to support each other.

You notice it brushing your teeth, walking to the car, standing at the sink. The moment sharpens. Nothing is added. Everything becomes visible. Life is not paused to create presence. Presence arrives because attention is here.

These three qualities are already available. Each one appears when inner division quiets. They arise together, forming a unified expression of being.

Wholeness welcomes what appears.
Neutrality meets what moves.
Presence holds it all.
Together, they form the shape of Martfotai.

Section 3: The Body Knows First

Before Martfotai is understood intellectually, it is felt somatically.

Try this now.

Notice your breathing without controlling it. Feel the space that holds all sensation. Recognise the awareness that has been here throughout every episode of this series.

The essence of your being is awareness itself, spacious and unchanging, embracing all experience.

What you call “time” is the memory of states. But Martfotai is beyond state, it is what sees them. You are consciousness, steady amidst the movement of time.

Martfotai lives as a natural condition; the body settles into what has always been present.

Physical markers appear naturally. Jaw unclenched. Shoulders dropped. Chest open. Breath full and free. The body stops defending territory it never owned.

Check this now. A quick body scan reveals where Martfotai is present and where fragments still rule.

Instinctive centre: Is your belly soft or clenched? Soft belly signals safety. Clenched belly signals the machine still believes it must defend.

Emotional centre: Is your chest open or armoured? Open chest receives impressions cleanly. Armoured chest filters everything through old wounds.

Intellectual centre: Is your forehead relaxed or furrowed? Relaxed brow indicates thinking without strain. Furrowed brow shows thinking captured by worry.

When all three centres align, a felt shift occurs. The body knows it is whole. Breath deepens. Muscles soften. A quiet confidence settles in.

This is verification. Not belief. Direct somatic recognition.

Simply noticing begins the relaxation. The body knows what to do when you stop interfering with instructions from old programmes.

Learn to distinguish hunger from craving. Hunger is the body’s clean request for fuel. Craving is emotional need dressed as physical want. Martfotai feeds hunger, observes craving.

Learn to distinguish tiredness from resistance. Tiredness is the body’s honest signal to rest. Resistance is fear or habit masquerading as fatigue. Martfotai rests when tired, acts through resistance.

When Martfotai consciousness is present, others feel it before words are spoken. Animals sense it immediately. Dogs who bark at strangers sit quietly. Cats who hide approach. Children who test boundaries relax.

Even strangers notice something different, though they may not have language for what they perceive. Conversations become easier. Conflicts de-escalate. People feel seen.

The field around you opens.

No words are needed. No posture is assumed. Coherence is transmitted, not personality. Calm meets the moment without resistance. Stillness shapes the atmosphere. And what is real in you begins to arise in others, naturally, unmistakably.

Section 4: How Martfotai Emerges

Martfotai arises when the noise falls away.

Each moment of clear seeing undoes a knot.
Each return to now releases another layer of entanglement.

The fragments begin to quiet. The effort to manage them dissolves. Your being reveals itself directly. You simply are.

What remains is pure awareness, a centre of complete clarity.

Time gathers into presence. You arrive as wholeness. Here. Now.

The sense of needing to become quiets.
Transformation surrounds you. You are living its shape with every breath.

Maurice Nicoll emphasised that true transformation requires breaking free from the dream of a future life that is merely a repetition of the past, advocating instead for becoming aware  in the present moment. This integration involves moving beyond the mechanical, habitual perception of time, what he sometimes referred to as “ticktock time,” to engage with “time alive”. He described the “Now” as a higher dimension, even a sixth dimension, where all time and life are contained, and where one can experience a sense of higher space.

This state of being in the Now is essential for integration, as Nicoll stated, “Without this Moment, this now, all men are asleep, even the Apostle, even the saint, even the lover”.

Martfotai is this integration.
A presence that holds all timelines without being fragmented by them.

Each prior moment becomes part of the whole, a thread in the fabric of clarity.

You witnessed your history. You are the witness. Walking freely now, unburdened.

This is presence remembering itself.

This is Martfotai. The one who stays.

Section 5: Living as Martfotai

Martfotai expresses itself through daily life. It is not a special mode reserved for calm, peaceful moments or spiritual settings. It lives in traffic, in meetings, in family conversations. It lives in the ordinary.

In relationships, Martfotai brings coherence. When another person speaks sharply, the body registers a reaction. A familiar tension appears. But instead of reacting, awareness expands. You feel the breath. You sense the body. You see the other clearly, not as an opponent, but as someone in pain or need.

A simple reply emerges. It is not rehearsed. It does not defend or retreat. It offers truth, shaped by clarity. Perhaps it sounds like, “Yes, I hear you.” Or “Let’s pause for a moment.” That moment shifts the tone of the whole interaction. Connection becomes possible again.

This is presence, not control. When you are not defending a role, you can meet another human being with openness. The field clears. Intimacy returns.

In parenting, Martfotai brings grounded clarity. Children mirror the state of the parent, not their instructions. When you meet your child from presence, something in them recognises safety.

A child throws a tantrum. The body of the parent reacts. Old habits rise. Yet something deeper holds the moment. You remain steady. The child’s energy burns through. When it passes, you are still there, clear, present, loving.

This changes everything. Discipline becomes guidance. Correction becomes connection. You are not managing behaviour from reactivity. You are meeting emotion with stability.

Your child feels seen, not controlled. They sense the truth of your presence more than the content of your words. They begin to regulate because your state shows them how.

In quieter moments, you share without teaching. You walk beside them, not above them. You listen without fixing. They speak freely. You answer simply. Trust grows in the space between.

This is not perfect parenting. It is present parenting. You remain available. You stay rooted. You hold your child in a field where they can unfold without distortion.

Martfotai makes this possible by gathering attention into wholeness. The parent and the child become two expressions of the same unfolding life. Each moment becomes an invitation to meet, to grow, and to remember what matters.

In work, Martfotai serves the task directly. Whether writing a report or fixing a sink, the work becomes the focus. There is no split between what is done and the one doing it. Attention remains in the task. Thought supports action. The body follows.

If a mistake occurs, it is seen and adjusted. No spiral. No collapse. No retreat into narrative. You see what needs improvement and apply it. When success comes, it is received with the same clarity. No inflation. No clinging. Just acknowledgment and movement forward.

Work becomes complete in itself. The doing is its own fulfilment. Dishes are washed, and the dishes are clean. An email is written, and it communicates what is needed. A plan is made, and it reflects both care and clarity. There is nothing missing.

In difficulty, Martfotai holds the field. The challenge may be emotional, physical, financial, or relational. A diagnosis arrives. A relationship changes. A plan fails. The event lands. The heart tightens. The breath shortens. But something remains steady.

You feel the response. You let it move through. You do not interfere with the body’s reaction. You stay near to it. You let presence hold the charge.

And from that holding, something clear begins to emerge. Perhaps a step to take. Perhaps a call to make. Perhaps a period of stillness before movement. Martfotai does not rush. It does not delay. It meets life directly.

Clarity brings capacity. What once felt overwhelming now becomes workable. The inner system knows how to move. The difficulty does not shrink, but the presence holding it becomes larger.

In daily life, Martfotai does not disappear. It checks the calendar. It makes tea. It cleans the floor. It listens to a friend. Each moment arrives. Each moment is met.

In a conversation, you remain aware of the breath. In a crowded place, you sense the feet on the ground. In a moment of solitude, you hear the silence inside the sound.

Ordinary life reveals itself as extraordinary when seen clearly. Nothing needs to be heightened. Nothing needs to be spiritualised. The sacred enters through attention, not adornment.

You begin to notice the small things. A bird crossing the sky. The warmth of the cup in your hands. The precise sound of footsteps on the stairs. They are doorways, not distractions.

Martfotai does not float above life. It walks with both feet on the ground. It remembers the body. It remembers the world. And in doing so, it brings everything into coherence.

There is no moment unworthy of presence. No place excluded. No state forbidden. Wherever life moves, Martfotai meets it with clarity and steadiness.

This is how consciousness becomes embodied. Through the simple, repeated act of meeting what is here with all that you are.

Section 6: The Transmission Quality

The Fifth Striving offers a compass:

“The striving always to assist the most rapid perfecting of other beings, both those similar to oneself and those of other forms, up to the degree of the sacred ‘Martfotai,’ that is, up to the degree of self individuality.”

This assistance moves through presence alone. It flows quietly beneath the surface, carried by the embodied state itself.

Transmission begins with state. When presence is whole, clear, and stable, others feel it. As atmosphere. As field.

In this atmosphere, people begin to remember. The field shifts. The body softens. The breath changes. The mind pauses. Being itself transmits.

Transmission reaches beyond language. It dissolves resistance. It opens space where forgotten recognition reappears.

Imagine this:

You walk into a room heavy with tension. Arguments have etched themselves into the air. Faces are tight. Defences are high. The room is full of strategies, justifications, opinions.

You do nothing. No clever intervention. No spiritual language. You sit, quietly. Something in you is still.

The energy begins to shift. The pace slows. Voices soften. No force was applied. No outcome pursued. Yet the atmosphere changed.

That is transmission. The body of another being senses a different possibility and begins to align, through resonance not through teaching.

Presence invites presence.

Like two tuning forks, one struck into stillness causes the other to vibrate in sympathy. The clearer your presence, the more it reverberates.

This does not mean passivity. Transmission can live in action, in words, in humour, in strength. But it always carries the same quality: something essential is present and undisturbed.

You have felt it. A nurse who places a hand on your shoulder. A grandparent who says nothing but sees you completely. A stranger whose eyes remind you to breathe.

There is no self-reference in these moments. No performance. No imagined retelling. Just the quiet recognition: something real occurred.

This is what the Work calls living influence. It cannot be faked. And it never manipulates.

Even in writing, it can be felt. You read a line and pause. Something in it holds a frequency you remember. A transmission can live in the space between words when the words were written in presence.

Transmission operates as pure presence. Its power lives in clarity. Clear, undistorted, complete.

Martfotai serves from equality. Presence recognises presence. In that recognition, wholeness reveals itself.

You are sitting with someone in pain. They need someone who can remain. Simply be. In that being, the pain is held in a wider field. Held completely.

This is the deeper meaning of service.

A reminder from Russell A. Smith returns:

“You may not be able to make another man conscious, but you can at least try not to contribute to his sleep.”

To live as Martfotai is to become transparent to truth, not drawing attention, not inserting self, not correcting others from habit. Just being, and allowing that being to act where it can, without imposition.

There is a paradox here. The more you stabilise presence, the more your influence deepens, but the less you need to use it. The work does itself.

Martfotai consciousness assists simply by existing. It holds the field where recognition becomes possible.

In future transmissions, we will explore this field in more depth, how to stabilise it, how to refine it, how to trust it.

For now, remember:

When nothing is being added, something profound is already being given.

Section 7: Common Obstacles & Clarifications

A few patterns often arise when this teaching begins to land. Each is a reflection of an older self, trying to hold its place.

“I’m not worthy.”

Unworthiness is a posture, a stance taken by fragmented identity living in comparison.

Martfotai reveals itself. What remains when effort falls silent and identity rests. A description of reality seen clearly.

“This sounds arrogant.”

Wholeness makes no claims. It announces nothing, seeks no agreement. The discomfort reveals personality contracted around self-image.

False humility performs. Genuine humility lives as presence: pure, undefended.

Martfotai has no hierarchy. One person might embody it more consistently than another, yet the ground of being is shared. Everyone carries the same potential. The light belongs to no one.

“I still have problems.”

Problems continue. Consciousness meets life fully. It meets events, pain, loss, illness, fatigue, with steadiness.

The shift lives in how awareness relates.

A diagnosis appears as a condition. Financial stress becomes a logistical challenge. Parenting struggles become opportunities for presence.

This stabilises the heart. Compassion grows stronger as it springs from wholeness.

Each difficulty becomes an ally. A mirror. A precise signal showing where presence can deepen.

“How do I know if I’m there?”

This question belongs to the seeker. Martfotai simply is.

When presence stabilises, the question dissolves. Seeing is its own confirmation. Clear as knowing you are. Just seeing.

If the question arises from habit, meet it gently. If it arises from curiosity, let it return to silence.

Martfotai lives quietly. It meets life directly. When becoming dissolves, wholeness remains.

Section 8: Integration Practices

Wholeness expresses itself through how life is met. These practices let it take form.

Morning Check (3 minutes)

Sit quietly. Allow the body to speak.

• Sense where tension gathers.
• Name the emotion present.
• Notice the thought shaping awareness.

Give space to the three centres, instinctive, emotional, intellectual. Attention itself begins the alignment.

Set a clear tone for the day:

“Today I live as wholeness, neutrality, and presence.”

This gentle declaration brings all three qualities into focus from the start.

Hourly Pause (3 breaths)

Pause wherever you are.

• First breath: sense the body.
• Second breath: feel emotion.
• Third breath: observe the mind.

Three breaths create a gap for awareness. Each pause strengthens the ability to choose. A soft reminder or subtle cue can anchor this practice through the day.

Evening Reflection (5 minutes)

Recall one moment when attention scattered.
Identify what opened the gap and what restores steadiness.

Recall one moment of clarity.
Identify what supported it and how it can return.

Write three lines. Short writing roots the seeing. Over time, patterns reveal themselves and steadiness grows.

Weekly Deepening (30 minutes)

Choose any earlier episode.
Listen again to see how perception has shifted.

Insights that once felt distant now feel familiar. What once seemed complex becomes clear. This is recognition strengthening through repetition.

Monthly Martfotai Fast (24 hours)

Live one day without adding techniques or practices.

Move naturally. Allow life to unfold as it is. This reveals how stable presence has become.

If attention drifts, return to a single breath or pause. If it remains steady, let it deepen.

Each fast clarifies the ground on which life is now lived.

Mirror Reflection Practice

Select a recent situation where reactivity arose. Revisit it gently.

Ask inwardly: “What part of me was reflected here?”

Each reflection shows a forgotten fragment. Seeing it with clarity dissolves distortion and allows wholeness to integrate.

When the mirror is clear, both self and other appear without conflict. Presence perceives directly.

These practices aren’t preparation. They’re recognition itself.

Each pause. Each reflection. Each fast. Removing what obscures.

The work builds nothing. The work reveals.

Closing: You Are Already This

Here is what matters most.
Martfotai lives here, now.

Wholeness shines through the one hearing these words.
Neutrality breathes when preference quiets.
Presence reveals itself the moment attention rests in the body.

There is no waiting. No becoming. No distance to cross.
Only recognition, of what has always been aware behind every thought, every breath, every moment of remembering.

Next time, we explore Episode Twenty-Three: “I Am a New Beginning”,
What happens when Martfotai recognises itself.
When the story falls away and life begins to flow from wholeness, not in search of it.

But for now, pause.

Take three conscious breaths.
Let the body be held by gravity.
Feel the breath move without effort.
Notice the subtle stillness behind sensation.
Let attention rest in the field that holds all of it, without dividing, without judging, without needing to change anything.

This field is what you are.
Not the roles. Not the thoughts.
The awareness that includes all of them without collapse.

That awareness walks as Martfotai.
Whole. Neutral. Present.

When this is known, not imagined, but seen,
The path no longer moves toward anything.
It becomes an expression of what already is.
The seeker dissolves. The work becomes natural.
The one who walks and the path are the same.

Consciousness now moves through your form.
It breathes through your chest, looks through your eyes, speaks through your voice.
You are no longer reaching. You are living.

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Thank you for listening.

This is Martfotai. I’m Gary Eggleton.

May your seeing be clear.
May your presence serve wholeness.
May you recognise yourself as the light that has never left.